weightnolonger

I’ve been thinking and dreaming about so many “thinks” to help keep me motivated.  It’s fun to get lost in your thinks…

1.  I’ve been browsing through the “real clothes” section in store, dreaming of the day I can shop for cute clothes.  I miss shopping - it hasn’t been fun for a lot of years now.  But I want to go to the mall and buy all kinds of FUN CUTE new clothes and matching shoes!!!  I’m going to go nuts for clothes when I lose more weight!

2.  In the not-so-distant future, I’ve been thinking about reaching my mini-goal of 230.  That’s only 13 lbs to go - maybe a 4 weeks? 6 weeks?  8 weeks?  It depends on how hard I work, but hitting the 220’s in the next couple of months sounds sooooo good to me right now.  And after that is the 2-teens… and then the 200’s… and the the glory of ONEderland.   These thoughts put a smile on my face!!!  :)  And when I reach 230, what will I move my mini-goal to???  These are the thinks I love to think about!!!

3.  Moving on to other thinks… I love to think about meeting up with old friends (and even enemies, … maybe especially enemies lol) and showing off the new me down the line.  There was one or two people in particular who were mean to me and mocked my weight.  There’s a special satisfaction in knowing that I’m now smaller than them and healthier too - and well on my way further down.   It’s not that I do it for them, I do it for me.  But I will enjoy showing off a bit too, hehe.

4.  I also think about my husband and son.  I feel bad that hubby’s had a fat wife forever, and I’d like to go to the office party in a sexy LBD (little black dress).  I wonder if my son gets teased about his fat mom?  He would never tell me, he’s a sweetheart.  But I know kids.  I’d like to NOT be the fat mom for a change too.

5.  I like to think about reaching my goal - my super ultimate goal of 125, lean and muscular.  If I were to accomplish that, I could accomplish anything!  Really — ANYTHING!   That would be 184 lbs lost (good grief!) - heck, I could even be a spokesperson for my gym or something.   That would be simply AMAZING!  What would it be like to be in maintenance???

These thinks have helped me climb back on the wagon today after a week of vacation and the flu that led me a bit off course.  What thinks do you think to keep you motivated when times get tough???

I was on vacation and soooo energized about getting to attend some extra classes at the gym that I can’t normally make.  All went well through last weekend, and then on Sunday I came down with the flu.  I guess it was the flu - terrible fever and chills alternating.  I was achey and miserable, not to mention my fever was through the roof and I could barely keep it in check for brief periods thanks to Extra Strength Tylenol.  I didn’t get out of bed at all until WEDNESDAY, and in the meantime I lived on nothing but Sprite Zero, red popsicles, and ice cream to keep my temps down.  It was AWFUL!

Wednesday I got over the fever but still felt weak and achey for 2 days.  We went ahead and went up to the campsite to visit my in-laws for a few days.  They were cooking for us (in their motorhome) and even took us out to eat once.  When I got my apetite back, I was hungry for everything in site, so that didn’t go well.   Bacon, easter candy, ugh - more disasters.  I did eat grilled chicken at the restaurant and dinners were reasonable, but still… not good overall.  I also got in some walking and playing at the pool, but no real exercise to speak of.  Today we got back in to town, but not in time to make the cycling class I’d hoped to get to.  I decided to “live it up” for one last day before I get back on track tomorrow, so we just went to the museum and had a lazy day around town.  I didn’t eat well today either, but vacation is over and I’m ready to put it behind me now.

Tomorrow will be back on the plan and back to the gym.  I just hate that I got the flu on VACATION of all weeks and it just totally threw me off course.  Oh well, I guess that is life.  Maybe cheat week will help bump up my metabolism.

I’ve noticed I seem to be sick constantly since dieting - I wonder why?  I’m eating much healthier and getting lots of exercise, and I’m in better shape than I have been in years.   I think germs are spread too easily at the gym, but oh well…. minor setbacks will not get in the way of my goal.

I lost 2 lbs this week - yahoo!  It’s been hard for me to lose anything lately, so this is great.  Changing up the routine and trying kickboxing really paid off, and I’m so glad to see the scale moving down again!.  I’m aproaching the 230’s…. how exciting.

Just wanted to post the link in case anyone is interested: 

http://www.kepoosport.com/Gift.html

 I can’t promise it is legit, but I figured it was worth a try.

I did it for the first time tonight, and it was fun.  Tough, but do-able which is where I need to be to challenge myself.  I was happy - I made it through all 60 min, with just some minor modifications to make it lower impact for now (big steps instead of jumps, for example).  The instructor was new to me, but she was really nice and fun and encouraging.  I’m so glad I did it instead of wimping out, lol.  My son went with me and enjoyed it too, so we’re hoping to find a class that fits our schedule to go regularly. 

I think this is just what I need to bust through the almost-plateau (really slowwwww loss lately) and start progressing again.  Tomorrow morning I’ll be at Hydro again too. 

I’m proud of me today.  *pats self on back*

My son is out of school next week, so Matt and I are taking of work too.  YAY!!!!!!!  I’m leaving at noon tomorrow and won’t be back until March 24…. *ahhhh*….

I’m not afraid of vacation wreaking havoc on my weight loss at all.  I’m actually looking FORWARD to it.  We don’t have a lot of money to travel, so we’ll be doing some small things around town and visiting our parents.  I will have time for cooking good meals at home!  Time for going to those daytime classes at the gym that I can never make!  Time for ME!!!!

It’s going to be great!!!

I’m going to start with a Core class tomorrow at 5, and if I’m feeling brave, I’ll stay for Cardio Kickboxing at 5:45.  I haven’t done this before so I’m a little nervous, but it is the same trainer I have for Hydro and she’s awesome.  I gotta push myself further to see results, so this may be the next step. 

The scale said 245 14 oz, and teetered a little between that and 246 even.  But I am counting that as 245 and that makes 2 lbs, lol.  So, I actually lost a little this week - yay!!!

With the time change and me being out of town, driving home this (Sunday) morning, I didn’t make it to the cycling class I want to try so I’m just going to the gym today for a regular workout.  But I am very serious about trying a 60-min cycling class.  It is multi-level with hills and speedplay.   I’m not worried about the workout so much as sitting on the bike seat for 60 min. 

Will I survive this????

Group fitness classes are always more fun than working out on your own and I think it has music and all.  I’m just worried about that dang seat - yikes!

I should be at the gym tonight, but I’m calling in sick. 

I’ve been reading about breaking through plateaus and there’s a bunch of different theories on this.  One is, increase calories… splurge a little so your body is reassured that it isn’t, in fact, starving.  So tonight we went out to eat and I had fajitas.  I had some chips (no salt) and salsa as an appetizer, and fajitas and rice for my meal.  It was a splurge, but not THAT bad of one.  My fajitas do not include sour cream or guacamole - just grilled chicken, pico de gallo, and a lil bit of cheese on a tortilla.   And although  it was a hearty meal as intended, I didn’t overstuff myself or anything.

Anyway, it really REALLY upset my stomach within 20 min of finishing dinner.  I’m not sick and it’s not the flu - it is most definitely a temporary “WTH were you thinking” protest from my body kind of thing. 

My husband and son headed off to the movies to watch a guy movie that I would not want to see, and I was planning to hit the gym hard.   But I was too miserable.  I thought I’d let my tummy settle and then head out, but it’s been slow to settle and the clock keeps ticking and the temp keeps dropping and now… well, it’s just not going to happen tonight.

I feel guilty, although I should give myself a break.  I went Mon, Wed, Thur, and I’ll be at my class at 8:30 am.  I’m sure I’ll be there Sunday too.  Isn’t 5 days a week ‘good enough’?  Why am I obsessing over this?  Or maybe I should suck it up and work through my misery, I don’t know.

The one thing that would really help me get over my self-induced guilt trip would be a reasonable loss at weigh-in tomorrow morning.  I’d be content with a lb - and over the moon with 2 lbs.  And yet something tells me the &#$%*# scale won’t budge again.

Plateaus are bad for my morale.  They do keep me motivated.  But darn it, big losses motivate me too and I’m ready for some of THAT kind of motivation.  I’m feeling fatter than ever since the scale won’t budge, and that’s just silly because I’m smaller than I’ve been in 10 years and healthier than I’ve been in … at least 15 years. 

Anyway, I’m just rambling.  It’s freezing cold in here, and I think I’m going to go snuggle in my warm bed til morning.

I’m stubborn it’s true, and I get an idea in my head and want to see it through.  But a 100 lbs in a year is not an easy accomplishment, especially considering unforeseen back injuries and illnesses that came up.  And why does it really matter if it takes 52 weeks… or 58 weeks…. or 62 weeks??  I’m working on a new and improved me, and I WILL get there at my own pace.

So I write this to say, thanks!  I’m not giving up the goal.  I’m working hard and will try to step it up and strive to reach my goal.  But 90 lbs in a year would still be a pretty awesome achievement, as would 100 lbs in 14 months.  I’m not going to make the entire journey all about that date.

That said, last night I went to the gym as planned depite torrential rains and a tornado watch, and some killer traffic in my commute.  (I had to get out in that anyway to get home, so why not stop at the gym and wait for some of it to pass!)  I got drenched because I didn’t have an umbrella and had to walk quite a distance to my car.  But, I made it. 

I burned just under 700 calories according to the machines.  I did 20 min on the CrossRamp on the cross training setting, 20 min on the elliptical on hill training level 5, then 5 min on the bike on Kilimanjaro level 6 to bring my heart rate down a little, and the last 15 min on the Arc Trainer on hill training level 3.  Total:  60 minutes

I barely got home in time to watch Lost, but I made it just in the nick of time. 

And to keep pushing myself, I made a list of possible workout plans each day at the 2 gyms near my house.  I’m also going to put it here for easy reference in the future.

Monday:  Cycle 60 or Hydro Training at 7 pm (I’ve never tried Cycle 60, and I’m honestly afraid my butt will not enjoy 60 min on that seat.  But, maybe it is time to give it a try.)

Tuesday:  Core at 6:30 pm

Wednesday:  Hydro Training at 7 or Kickbox Jam at 8 pm

Thursday:  Core at 7 pm

Friday:  no classes - just my own cardio workout

Saturday:  Cycle 60 or Hydro Training at 8:30 am, and/or Saturday Sampler at 9:45 am

Sunday:  Cycle 60 at 9:45 am

Yes, it’s me blogging again.  I just realized something… my goal was to lose 100 lbs in a year… and I’ve only got 14 weeks (including this week, which is almost gone) left to go!!!!   I’ve got 38 lbs to lose!!!  I’d have to lose roughly 2.7 lbs per week to make my goal, and lately my body has not been cooperating at all!!!

It isn’t the end of the world if I don’t make my goal, especially since I was out with a hurt back for a while, but I sure would like to.  So right now, I’m trying to formulate a plan to kick it up a notch.  I’ve only been losing about 2 lbs a week on average, if I exclude the time I was out with my back and didn’t make progress.  So what can I do to burn an extra lb per week without significantly increasing the time invested?  I’m already at the gym 5+ nights per week.  

I think I really need to find a new class or something to mix it up.  My body responds well to changing my routine - now I’ve just got to figure out what I can find to do.